…And I Conquered the Anger
One day while checking the tickets of passengers in Mumbai Mail, I went to the air-conditioned coach. There I saw Swami Sri Lilashahji Maharaj sitting in deep meditation on a coir mat spread atop the soft cushions. I was surprised to note that the emancipated Saints see no difference between a third class bogie and a first class air-conditioned coach which is primarily used by the rich. My head bows in spontaneous reverence to such Saints who can sit in Samadhi irrespective of the environment they are in.
I paid my obeisance to Maharajshri and said, “For Saints like you, all places are but the same. You can enjoy the bliss of salvation in all conditions.
But what should the
Househokders like me do to achieve the perfect equanimity as that of yours.
The revered Maharaj advised, “Be rid of lust and anger, then you too can attain salvation.”
Jahaan Ram Thaan nahi kaam
Jahaan kaam Thaan nahi Ram
‘where there is Rama (The Supreme Consciousness), there cannot be kama (lust, desire) and where there is kama, there cannot be Rama.’
Anger is verily Bhasmasura which burns down all the virtues in its wake and also defiles the Antahkarana.”
I replied, “with your grace, surely I will be able to conquer both lust and anger.”
The revered Maharaj said, “Brother! Is grace so easily available? Your own strong effort and firm conviction must accompany the saintly grace. Take a vow that you will desist from these emotions throughout your life… then I will shower my blessings on you.”
I responded, “I am ready to take a vow to abstain from lust and anger for the rest of my life but if I am unable to maintain the vow, I would be considered a liar.”
The revered Maharaj then said, “Fine! To start with take a vow only for a period of 8 days and thereafter renew the vow everyday. In this way you can escape from such sins. Is this acceptable to you?”
I readily agreed with folded hands. The Maharaj blessed me with a couple of flowers. His Holiness had directly struck at the two gravest shortcomings of mine. I was surprised as to why Maharaj made me take a vow to control only anger and passion (lust) and not any other vice. Later on I Came to know the mystery behind it.
The next day I left kanpur by passenger train. It was around 9o’clock in the morning. I went to the third class compartment and started checking the tickets. When I asked the person sleeping on the first berth to show his ticket, he became angry and started abusing me, “Are you blind? Can’t you see I am sleeping. What right do you have to wake me up? Is this the way of ckecking tickets? Don’t you have any common sense?”
He kept on blabbering in the same vein. I too felt angry but vividly remembered the vow that I had taken in front of the revered Maharaj and somehow managed to swallow my anger like a dose of poison.
Then I calmly told him, “sir! Your are perfectly correct in telling me that I have neither intellect nor common sense. Look, my hair has become grey in the sunlight. You seem to possess a better intellect, politeness and common sense. Please teach me how I should ask for the tickets.
Unfortunately, it is my duty to check tickets and thus I am very sorry to trouble you in this manner.”
Then I humbly requested him with folded hands, “Sir! Kindly excuse me for the inconvenience. Will you be kind enough to show me your ticket now?”
My politeness made him feel ashamed and he sat up on his berth. He quickly got down and begged for forgiveness, “Please pardon me. I was sleeping and thus did not recognize you. You must forgive me and say so in your own words.”
I was quite pleased and satisfied at the turn of events. I was thinking how beneficial and powerful is the command of a Saint when it is obeyed with faith and diligence.
The compassion of Saints brings forth miraculous changes in individuals even to the extent of changing their inherent nature. Otherwise I had no ability to keep my temper under control. I would have been totally helpless; but the Maharaj’s grace compassion made me worthy enough. A thousd salutations at the feet of such Saints.
Aspirant Shri Rijumal
Retired TTI Kanpur